I Close My Eyes
(Words and Music by Michelle Skoog)
This song is about surrendering my life once again to the Lord. There have been times in my life when “I’ve hit bottom again” and didn’t know what to do or where to turn. I just felt alone; on my knees “crying in the dark”. When I wrote this song, I was contemplating what I would do if I ever lost someone very special to me: my husband. I know there are so many people who have lost loved ones, their spouse, a child, a parent, or a close friend. It keeps me awake at night sometimes and I struggle with that fear of what I would do if a tragedy like that happened; would I be able to go on?
Throughout this song, there is this struggle of wanting to pull away from God, to give up, to crawl into a hole and hide. But He continues to gently call me to trust and let go. And it is so hard with the noise of the world. The ‘world’ tells us to fill our void with things, food, drugs, distractions, etc. But in every difficult trial of this life, we have a choice to make. We can choose to give up or we can choose to go on. As hard as it seems at the time, can we choose to close our eyes to the world and really “see” the truth? The truth is that our Lord is running toward us with open arms. The truth is that He is holding you and me. We can see hope and know that we can go on once again. I know that God has a ‘much bigger plan I don’t understand’ and He has ‘so much waiting for me’. This world is not the end; a heavenly paradise is waiting for each of us.
I hope we realize that we cannot crawl into a hole and hide; God needs us to share our stories so that we can help others along this sometimes difficult journey of life.
Michelle began writing as a young girl and has continued to write whenever she feels the Lord speaking to her heart. “When I write a song, it is an amazing, humbling experience. I truly feel like I am God’s vessel and His words and music flow through me. I have to let go and listen deeply for His voice. The words are not mine, they are His.” Find out more at MichelleSkoog.com